ways of shame (chapter 1)

 

Lily was a young woman of 19 she had recently moved from her home town to Phoenix to study at college. Since she was little, lily loved to wear diaper, she had always wore them in private and never dare wear them outside of home or even when her parents were home. 

since she moved to Phoenix, she discovered a new passion, she loved going to an old industrial field where all the building and manufacture were closed and where almost no one ever come. Each time she went there she wore a diaper nicely hidden beneath her clothes, and brought with her a change of clothes, in witch she would change when she arrived at the abandoned field. This change of clothes did not hide very well the diaper she was wearing, 

On this particular day she had decided not only to wear a diaper and clothes that did not hide it, but to wear a diaper with to booster pad, the diaper like that felt thicker than what she had the habit of wearing, it made her waddle a bit and she had been afraid to be discovered during her trip to her play field, but she luckily had escape being discovered, or she thought. Once she had gotten to her play field, she changed as usual in her non masking clothes, this time it was a pair of tight yoga pants that were down on the waist and very thin so that it was readable the type of diaper she was wearing and she also had a t-shirt that only covered half of her stomach so that the top of the diaper she was wearing was clearly visible to anyone she would have met. Once she was ready in her clothes that left no thing to imagination she became her little walk around the field. 

After 2 hours of walking around she decided it was time to go back home and so she went back to the spot where she had hidden the clothes in witch she came to the field but when she got there she could not find her clothes she looked around but after a a while, she had to admit that her clothes were not there anymore. 

 Once she had realized that her clothes were truly gone, a strange feeling started growing inside of her and she did not know immediately what it was, but soon understood that it was a mix between fear and shame. She did not know what to do, how was she going to go back home, after twenty or thirty minutes a slow realization that she would have to go home dressed as she was and that made her fear and shame grow even harder. She could not believe that she would have to do that as she never imagined walking in the city dresses in clothes that left her diaper exposed. Once she had gotten used to the idea of walking home dressed as she was and after having made sure one last time that her clothes were truly gone, she started to walk slowly in direction of the center of the city and to her apartment. When she got to the limit of the field back on the street where there were already a few cars passing by, she had a moment of hesitation, but she swallowed back her pride and started her walk of shame back to home, 

After a few minutes of pure shame and a couple of cars passing by and honking at her, she heard a voice that seemed familiar calling her, she was  afraid that someone she knew had recognized her and did not dare to take her head up to see who it was. After a while she looked up to see who kept calling her and saw that it was Anna a girl that she knew from her hometown, who went to the same college as her and who seemed to hate her for an unknown reason.